Today Yesterday, was my 40th Birthday! Woohooo Happy Birthday to Me!
No big birthday shenanigans this year, because I’ve decided to celebrate my birthday, not on one day…but throughout the year. Why not! Who say’s it HAS to be a one day celebration.
It is a milestone birthday, I guess.
But my birthday parties, for as long as I can remember, sometimes end up missing the mark. I’m used to it. Well kind of. So therefore this year, I’m taking a stand and doing things differently. No party, no chance for issues amongst the crowd, no expectations, no disappointments, no drama, no aggravation.
My Mom wanted to throw me a huge party this year, and I feel bad that I told her no. Not that I didn’t appreciate the gesture, it really was very nice of her. But I didn’t want to go through the headache of all the planning, with the looming thought of what was going to go wrong this time, in the front of my mind.
I’ve been asked by many friends, why I didn’t want a party this year. There are many reasons, and the one reason that it DOESN’T have to do with, is me turning 40. I embrace it. There was a time, not long ago, I didn’t think I’d make it to here. I’m proud to be 40. I think, no I KNOW, I’m gonna make 40 my best year ever!!
I just honestly didn’t want the disappointments from my past to tag along on my coattails into this chapter of my life. I cut the ties, and let them loose, setting them on fire. I reclaim the future, and let go of the past. It no longer serves me. The people who have brought me disappointment no longer have a place in my life. It does not matter if you were family or friend. If as a child you couldn’t be present in my life, unless it served you a purpose, or you were getting something in return, you have no place in my life. If as an adult, you brought countless drama to my life, you no longer have a place in my life. I’ve let go of many things along this life path, and I am forever grateful that I’ve been able to. It sometimes took me a little longer to get to that point, but eventually I did.
So this year, my Fabulous 40th year, I say throw caution to the wind.
I spent a few days celebrating leading up to my special day. I’ve gone to the casino with my Mom and spent a girls day with her. I’ve dated, even though I was hesitant about dating around my birthday, I had a blast! 😉 . I’ve waited an extraordinarily long ass time at PF Changs with a dear friend to celebrate my day (2 hours to get a table when the wait time was 45 min) 4 1/2 hrs later and let me say the gluten-free Ginger Chicken and those Chicken Lettuce Wraps were AHHHHHHMAZEBALLS Deliciousness! I’ve braved yet another snow storm to go to the Chocolate Expo, stood outside in the freezing snow without a hat (silly me lol) all to eat ridiculously large amounts of chocolate, bacon, gluten-free crackers, chocolate wine, and gluten-free cookies. Followed by a lovely dinner with more friends at Applebees where my friends made sure I had a gluten-free menu waiting when I returned from the lady’s room. They even got me dessert. A scoop of vanilla ice cream with whipped cream, hot fudge, and a cherry on top!
I laughed, I reminisced, I made memories, and took a long walk down memory lane over the last few days, and you know what? I couldn’t be happier. I can honestly say that my 40th Birthday Year is off to a wonderful start. I am looking forward to it in so many way. I couldn’t have asked for more.
My Mom just asked me a little while ago, if I had a good birthday. “I know you didn’t want a birthday party, but I hope you enjoyed your last few days of celebrating? You seem happier this year, than you sometimes have, so I’m thinking this was a good one?” Yes, Mom it was. From the moment I woke up to your lovely daffodils till now comfy cozy in my squishy socks relaxing with food network. I’d say it was one of the best birthdays yet!
I can’t wait to see what the rest of the year holds. I still have a trip to plan. Not sure yet! Boy I can’t make my mind up what I want to eat for breakfast some times, how am I going to plan a vacation lol.
Those are my Random Musings and Wanderlust for today 🙂